Dear Eddie…

Its hard to believe that you’ve been gone for so long. I don’t think of you as often, but there are times that a random memory will pop out of no where and all I can do is smile. I often wish I could turn back time thinking that if I’d done things differently I could have saved you, but of course that’s impossible. There were so many things I wanted to ask you. We had so many things we were supposed to do, but I guess this life was just too much for you.

I wish I’d been a better friend to you. I wish you trusted me enough to share your pain. Your death was a heavy load for me. I felt like if only I visited you I could have changed the outcome of that weekend. It took me a long time to stop feeling like your death was my fault although I must admit there are some days I ask myself how life would have turned out for you if I’d just come to town.

I hope that you didn’t die without knowing how much you meant to me as a friend and that I loved you very much.




I am obsessed with Adele’s new cd. It has been a while since I’ve loved over 50% of a cd, so this bears mentioning. The last female artist who got this much air time with me was Alicia Keys (As I Am) and Lauryn Hill (The Miseducation of Lauryn Hill).

I have 21 on my ipod and I burned a copy for my car as well. I listen to her so much even Kyleigh is getting in on it as well. She was getting ready for school a few days ago and singing He Won’t Go to herself. Her favorite track is Rumour Has It, which I must admit is very catchy. My absolute favorite song is Someone Like You. I don’t know what it is about it, but I HAVE to hear that at least 2 or 3 times.  My other faves are One & Only, Turning Tables, He Won’t Go, Rolling In The Deep, and Take it All. Now this is not to say I don’t like the other 3 songs because I do, but the songs I mentioned are in very heavy rotation. Simply put Adele’s voice is phenomenal and this cd is a must have!