This and That..

 kinda really neglected my little space here on the web last year. I didn’t realize just how long it had been since my last post until a few days ago…. so let’s catch up shall we??? 

I didn’t do a whole lot  I mostly read and watched tv. For the last few years I’ve challenged myself to read a certain number of books and I last year was terrible!! I set a low ball goal and I didn’t even meet that hmph! I don’t know why it’s not like I was doing anything, but ehh. I am trying to recall if anything made a lasting impression, but I am drawing a blank right now. What I do know is I am so tired of publishers posting the blurb If you loved Gone Girl…. listen Gone Girl was AWESOME except for that ending, but I won’t even get into THAT!!! 

In early Feb I had my Mirena removed, because it was the only thing I could think of that was causing me to be super emo. I discussed it here a few years ago. I was crying every day…several times a day over the smallest things. I cried when I was happy, sad, indifferent, confused you name it I was crying about it. I started seeing a therapist she suggested I give myself permission to be sensitive and not be embarrassed about my tears, but I was feeling like I was May in The Secret Life of Bees. I won’t go into all of the gory details but finally after 4 years it was removed and the tears dried up in a few days. So you know how they say it might take you awhile to get pregnant after it is removed???? Ummm yeah my eggs didn’t get the memo…we found out we were expecting our third baby around mid-March and I gave birth to our baby girl in November. I NEVER in a million years thought I would have 3 children (get ready for this cliche), but I cannot imagine life without her. She is so sweet and such a happy baby.

Over the summer I binged on the Netflix series Orange is the New Black. I read the book (of course) so I was curious about the series although the writers took a lot of creative license I really enjoyed watching and I cannot wait for season 2. While I am talking about Netflix let’s talk about the greatness that is House of Cards!!! Kevin Spacey is every single thing!!!! I absolutely love the ruthlessness that is Francis J. Underwood!! I started season 1 about 3 weeks ago and I finished season 2 shortly thereafter. I was sitting up in bed on my laptop until 3 a.m. quite a few times because I was so invested. I just had to know what was going to happen next and I was not disappointed. I wish I didn’t have to wait until next year to find out what is going to happen next. At least the new season of Game of Thrones (DIE JOFFREY DIE!) is starting soon to keep my mind occupied. I can’t forget about Ray Donovan… I started watching late in the season but I caught up quickly and will be waiting on that to come back some time this summer as well. Ray Donovan is like Scandal on steroids! LOVED IT!!! So maybe all of this tv is why I didn’t meet my reading goals… don’t judge me! 

 The rest of the summer was spent trying to stay cool especially while waddling around hot a** El Paso and getting my kids ready for school. My daughter started third grade and my son started pre-k at the end of July. Once school was in session it seems like time just flew by before I knew it the baby was here and we were packing up and getting ready to move back to Georgia.

I think that about sums up 2013 and 2014 so far… riveting stuff 

In case anyone is interested in some of the books I read last year…

Crazy Rich Asians  by Kevin Kwan — very interesting read… it was like an Asian soap opera

The Silent Wife by A.S.A Harrison — one of those books that I mentioned was compared to Gone Girl.. umm no. The author passed away last year unfortunately. I think this was her first novel and if I am not mistaken I read she’d been working on it for YEARS

Night Film by Marisha Pessl — I really wanted more from this book I ‘d heard such good things. It was just ok.

Revenge Wears Prada by Lauren Weisberger — OMG and I don’t mean that in a nice way either. I didn’t read Devil but I saw the movie and from what I have been told Miranda was worse in the book than the movie and maybe that’s why it was so off for me, but good grief Andi was SO unlikable… maybe it was because I kept picturing Anne Hathaway (I have a love/hate relationship with her) or perhaps it was because she kept obsessing over a character that I think we “saw” 3 maybe 4 times. I should add I have enjoyed everything else that I’ve read by Lauren so I don’t know why this one left me feeling so…

Scarlet (Book 2 The Lunar Chronicles) by Marissa Meyer — YA novel think Red Riding Hood in the year 3000 something. Futuristic and rather awesome. Book 3, Cress, was just released this year and I am #7 in line for it at my library. Can’t wait!

Dead Ever After (final book in the Southern Vampire Series aka Sookie Stackhouse) by Charlaine Harris — HATED IT!!!!!! The only reason I finished the series is because I’d invested so much I felt like I deserved to know how it would end. I kinda feel like Mrs. Harris got tired around book 7. Oh yeah and since I am a glutton for punishment I read the follow up aka where are they now type book that she released later on in the year called After Dead where she wrote little blurbs about every character in the series. Like seriously some characters got one sentence it was like Jane Doe after being mauled by wolves she died. UGH!!! I think Eric was able to get 2 paragraphs, Bill got around the same and Sookie got two pages.

Outside the Lines by Amy Hatvany — Listen I cannot begin to explain the greatness that is Amy Hatvany. After I read her novel Best Kept Secret she had a fan. Amy tackles issues in a very realistic way. I love how she doesn’t feel the need to tie her books up in a neat little bow. She gets that life is messy and often goes totally left. I have 2 more books of hers I want to read. I hope to pick them up soon. 

I should probably stop naming books at this point or I will mess around and review everything I read last year. 

I was just about to hit publish when I received an email from Yahoo about one of my email accounts… this is the second email I’ve gotten from them in a week… my passwords are super random.. I follow the rules upper and lower case letters special characters the freaking works and they are still telling me I need to change my password… I am so over them. I have been slowly transitioning all of my emails to gmail and I think the rest of them are going to end up in that inbox as well. ARGH!!!!

 

    

 

 

 

 

These Are My Confessions…..or I Get So Emotional Baby!

 

 

I have difficulty expressing my emotions verbally…. This may come as a surprise to those who know me or maybe not. I have been affectionately dubbed “The Card Lady” by my girlfriend D because of my uncanny ability to find just the right card for every occasion. I love cards quite simply because they usually are able to convey whatever emotion I am feeling at the time perfectly without me having to say the words out loud. I am not sure at what point in my life emotions became such a big scary thing for me, perhaps they have always been… just like my fear of public speaking.

Talking about how I feel makes me self-conscious and usually I tend to act all weird and clam up. I’ve been blessed with a great bunch of girlfriends and sorors all of whom are able to express themselves so beautifully and it is something I envy. Take my newest twin/soulmate/soror Charm I just think she is awesome-sauce and every time we chat when we get off the phone she tells me “love you B-Rabbit.”  Now some would think it would be the easiest thing in the world for me to say love you too Charmeezy cause I do, buuuuuuuuuuut saying I love you makes me all crazy and uneasy. Yes, people I know I am lightweight insane. Does this stem from growing up in a household where I don’t remember hearing it often or at all? Perhaps… or it could be a hang up that I acquired all on my own.

Let’s add some more strangeness to the pot shall we? Now while I don’t like talking about my feelings and whatnot I am a HUGE crier and when I say huge I mean huge. Television shows, commercials, certain gospel songs, proposals, sappy movies….hell even happy movies make me cry. Recently, I was watching Coming Home on Lifetime and there was one particular story that touched me, and as I watched tears silently streamed down my face. The hubs was on the other couch watching too soooo I was also trying to wipe them on my t-shirt hoping he wouldn’t see, but wouldn’t you know it he caught me. BUSTED!!!!! He looks over at me and says “Are you crying?! You are such an emotional wreck.”  He gets such joy from teasing me.

Lately the crying has been a tad bit more than normal. I cry a lot, but never much as I have been in the past couple months maybe even the past year. This is starting to freak me out. I have no idea where it’s coming from and I would very much like for it to stop, because people are going to think I am a nutcase. I saw a really cute youtube video one day…cried. Heard a song on the radio I liked…cried. Heard some really good news….you guess it. Now the way I am describing it may sound to you just like the way I said I normally am, but these mutant tears are on another level. I mean if I was an actress I could probably cry my ass off right now for a scene with no prompting/help/artificial tears, because these bad boys come with absolutely no warning. It is driving me insane!!!!!

I mentioned it to my primary physician a few months ago and she simply said she didn’t think I needed a prescription and that was about it. Well I saw her again today and I asked her if she would check my hormone levels since I am still a crybaby. Thankfully she said yes, so hopefully I will have my results soon and I can go from there. The only downside to this is, if it’s not my birth control making me cry like my name is John Boehner or Jim Bakker then I don’t know what the heck I am going to do!