Tuesday state agencies in South Carolina recognized Confederate Memorial Day (sigh) so we were off. I decided to take the day and use it as a pamper day/belated Mother’s Day gift for myself. I scheduled a facial at Urban Nirvana and it was AWESOME!!! When I left my face looked incredible. My skin had a bright dewy look and I could not stop looking in the mirror! Lisa, my esthetician was fabulous!!! ! I even purchased the Skinceuticals Simply Clean facial cleanser she recommended. I think I will be adding this little luxury to my regular routine. I mean I have to pay extra attention to my skin since I’m in my 30’s now right???
After leaving the spa I hurried over to Quiescence Hair, Skin & Nails to see my stylist Tonya. As usual she tamed my hair and I left her chair with a smile on my face. She added some very sassy highlights that I think make me look just right for the season. We’ll see what the hubs thinks when I see him in a few weeks 🙂
I contemplated going home after getting my hair done, but I thought why stop the fun??? Sooooo next I went to lunch and then the movies. Jumping the Broom was cute and funny. I laughed, cried, and drooled over Laz & Pooch (yum).
Well you’d THINK that I would have stopped there, buuuuuut the last thing on the agenda before picking up The Girl & The Boy was to run and get my little eyebrows tamed.
I cannot remember a time where I spent the entire day by myself doing whatever I wanted and it was all for me. I loved the feeling. After I left the salon I felt sexy and totally relaxed. I’ve resolved to do this more often, because as I learned from the “wise” Joe Guidice from The Real Housewives of New Jersey “Happy Wife Happy Life.” (and my good friend Charm didn’t think you could learn anything from reality tv!)
I have not worked in around 13 months. Being unemployed for the first time since graduating college and for so long has taken a toll on my self-worth. My situation could be worse and I am keenly aware of that fact. I appreciate the fact my husband works everyday and our family is not suffering and we have a roof over our heads. My children are not hungry or cold. I know that in this economy I should count my blessings every single day and every night before I close my eyes that is exactly what I do.
I remember when my husband was reassigned to a new duty station I was so excited. We had a toddler running around and a baby on the way. The thought of him not deploying (especially after just returning from his third tour in Iraq) if only for a little while was extremely comforting. I have been aggressively searching for employment since the birth of our son and yet in 13 months I’ve ONLY gone on 2 interviews, both of which were within the last 3 months. While one of the prospects seems promising the waiting is excruciating. There have been days that I feel like I am drowning in a sea of desperation. I sit and I wait for the phone to ring and each time it does I hold my breath while waiting on the caller id to display the name I am dying to see. So far the call has not come and at times that is a hard pill to swallow. I have not given up hope that I will be hired, but it is difficult waiting.
Strangely enough the person who seems to be most in tune with my feelings especially on the days that I feel like I can’t wait another second is my Dad. In the last few weeks when I feel like my head and heart are going to explode the phone rings , I look over and see his name. After I speak to him I feel just a little bit calmer like I can wait one more day.
I was recently reading something and one line stood out “what others think about you is their business.” Honestly reading that was like a light bulb switching on for me. For far too long I’ve always wanted people to think the best of me and I find myself going out of my way to be just a little bit nicer, more polite, forgiving, light-hearted than I probably truly am for the sake of my image.
While reading that sentence wasn’t the beginning of a huge epiphany it did make me realize no matter what I do, how nice, accomodating, friendly, and patient I am there will always be someone no matter what the circumstance that will just simply think ill of me and that is okay. My mom has always told me there will people who dislike you or talk about you despite all you do she’s also known for saying people talked about Jesus so they will talk about you. She’s a wise old bird when she wants to be and more importantly when I choose to listen.