Hair today

I am beginning to think there is more of my hair on the bathroom floor than my head. My hair is shedding like CRAZY and I am so tempted to cut it off completely… like off off… So short I have the same amount of hair as Aidan short. I’m trying not to be rash since I know the extra (excessive) shedding is more than likely connected to the fact I gave birth four months ago. Right now I’m just thinking of it as a trade… My hair for my sweet baby girl. In the meantime, I’m trying my best not to stress about it. It’s only hair right? Besides if my Pinterest beauty board is any indication of what I want then there’s a haircut in my future.

I started to let my hair grow out while we were still in El Paso because my stylist took leave to have rotator cuff surgery and shortly after her husband got orders and they moved back east. After all I went through to find her I decided I wasn’t up to chair hopping again so I kinda just let it be. If I  wanted a trim I’d just pop over to SuperCuts.

I’m rambling…. Please forgive my bald headed musings… This is what staying up late to watch Jimmy Fallon and getting up early to get the kids ready for school does to me.

I need silence!!!

Today is one of those days that I feel like I am at my wits end and this feeling only started AFTER I picked up my kids. The girl and I went to the grocery store before heading to the daycare to pick up the boy and she was all over the place! She was walking off, picking up huge jars of pickles and of course being mouthy as usual! I really wanted to give her a good old fashion beat down, but I refrained from being that parent who acts a damn fool in public. Fast forward a few minutes we have the boy and are at home, as soon as we hit the door he starts whining which is like nails on a chalkboard. Instead of asking for a cup of milk ┬álike a normal person because he can talk he thinks he’s better served by whining. His whine is this weird shaky billy goat sounding noise and it sends me every. single. time.

I need a break and its coming soon! My mom is going to keep the kids for the summer and perhaps this makes me a bad mother for admitting this BUUUUUT I am counting down the days until they leave! I need a little freedom and time to myself to just breathe! One of my girlfriends always says that she admires me and she thinks I am a great mom, but right now I definitely don’t feel like one. I feel like an overwhelmed, highly stressed-out basket case! Whoever said God has a sense of humor was NOT lying!!! How else would I, the some times introvert, have a daughter who is super hyper, outgoing and talkative???

I don’t know what I will do with all of this free time but I am so anxious to have it!!! The knowledge that I can come and go as I please, not having to figure out who can watch them while I do the simplest things sounds so appealing. God bless my mother, for right now she is a SAINT!!!!