In other news…

My 32nd birthday is fast approaching and I have nothing planned… not that I do much anyway. I never usually make a big deal out of celebrating. I am good with dinner and a new electronic device from the hubs… I am so easy to please! I have a few gadgets that I have been eyeing that I hope one of them makes their way over to 1270… they are

BlackBerry Bold 9700 (I got the Bold 9000 last year upgrade time, right?), The Nikon D3000 (not really holding my breath on this one because it is a bit pricey), and a flat screen tv for the bedroom preferrably a 26-32 inch (I mean the hubs has 46 inches of LCD HDTV loveliness for himself what about me??? LOL)

Books, Books and more Books

So my friends and I have decided to read 40 books by the end of the year. I think this will be a piece of cake for me because I think I read around that many if not more last year. There isn’t much that I truly enjoy more than a good book. I have a pretty good list going and I am excited to continue to add more.  Presently I am reading The Wrong Mother.  I’ve been sort of distracted so I haven’t gotten in to it yet, but I plan to read more later… I’ve got to do a little school work first. Once I finish this one I plan to start on The Help and after that Firefly Lane. I read Lovely Bones and Love You to Death over the weekend so I think I am off to a good start.

I’m keeping up with most of my to-read list on (which I love by the way) and I also have a few saved in my Blackberry (which I will share) and some on my Amazon wish-list.

To read list:

What She Wants – Cathy Kelly
Real life & liars – Kristina Riggle
Gone to the dogs- Mary Guterson
I’m so happy for you – Lucinda Rosenfeld
Easy on the eyes Jane Porter
Serena– Ron Rash
A field guide to burying your parents-Liz Palmer
Golden Grove- Francine Prose
Loose Girl a memoir of Promiscuity -kerry Cohen
Sleepwalking in Daylight -elizabeth flock
Millie’s Fling- Jill Mansell
Eve- Elissa Elliott
Leaving Carolina-Tamara Leigh
By the time you read this–Lois James
Miranda’s big Mistake – Jill Mansell
Snapped–Tracy Brown
Saving CeeCee Honeycutt -Beth Hoffman
Nightlight- The Harvard Lampoon

I am such a nerd getting all excited about reading, but what can I say?!

Treading water….

I have not worked in around 13 months. Being unemployed for the first time since graduating college and for so long has taken a toll on my self-worth. My situation could be worse and I am keenly aware of that fact. I appreciate the fact my husband works everyday and our family is not suffering and we have a roof over our heads. My children are not hungry or cold. I know that in this economy I should count my blessings every single day and every night before I close my eyes that is exactly what I do.

I remember when my husband was reassigned to a new duty station I was so excited. We had a toddler running around and a baby on the way. The thought of him not deploying (especially after just returning from his third tour in Iraq) if only for a little while was extremely comforting. I have been aggressively searching for employment since the birth of our son and yet in 13 months I’ve  ONLY gone on 2 interviews, both of which were within the last 3 months. While one of the prospects seems promising the waiting is excruciating.  There have been days that I feel like I am drowning in a sea of desperation. I sit and I wait for the phone to ring and each time it does I hold my breath while waiting on the caller id to display the name I am dying to see. So far the call has not come and at times that is a hard pill to swallow. I have not given up hope that I will be hired, but it is difficult waiting.

Strangely enough the person who seems to be most in tune with my feelings especially on the days that I feel like I can’t wait another second is my Dad. In the last few weeks when I feel like my head and heart are going to explode the phone rings , I look over and see his name. After I speak to him I feel just a little bit calmer like I can wait one more day.